Sweats. Pains. Headaches. Feeling sick. Aching muscles. Nightmares. No sleep (partly due to sweats every hour). My mid cycle symptoms are just beginning another assault on me. It never stops. I'm not "due on" till the 15th/16th and it's only the 1st. All I can do now is abuse pills. That is the only thing I have left. PMS came and stole away everything else and is in the process of taking the last little bits of me apart. I know I post about this on here too often, but this is how it is for me. I get a week off each month, thats how it is. From this point on I have no idea who I am, who I will wake up as or what I will be doing from one minute to the next. If I get a bout of dissasociation I can find myself out in the street in my slippers, spending lots of money at the shop, or anything like that, then I have no memory of it. I spend alot of time trying to piece together scraps of memory to try and work out why the fridge is filled with obscure foods that I just did not need etc etc. I've even held conversations and not been able to recall them. The fact I'm only 22 is really making me feel like it's just not worth it, I'm going to have to waste another 25 years of my life on this at leased before I hit the "change".