Havent been here in quite sometime, but i have been feeling myself slip back into blown depression. I am working full time, and working on my masters in clinical psych(and i cant even fix myself). I have been caught in this downward spiral, and i fear that it will lead to the events in the past that lead me here. I cant seem to concentrate, sleep, or find the joy in anything. I am missing my friends. My thought dwell on marcus a friend who died as a result of a drug overdose(died in my arms, from my drugs). They also dwell on a friend i made on this site. Someone i connected with, and not even from my own continent. This person, my friend, is also gone. what am i to do, i know as well as anyone the signs, the stats, the progression. But i cant seem to stop the spiral.