Ive been depressed for years, but ive always tried to stay happy. I post here and then I'm gone for a while , but I always end up posting here again. Right now the main reason I am posting is because I'm on spring break, and, well, I sit around the house all day and play games and crap. I dont have any friends to hang out with. The other day, I told my mom I was going to the movies with "my friend" so she thought I was actually going to hangout with friends, like she always tells me to. She doesn't realize I have no friends to hang out with. Anyways, I saw a movie by myself. I just wanna have some friends and have fun. But I guess it's too much to ask to be like everyone else. Maybe if there was something I was good at, or something, but no. I fail at everything. And I screw up other peoples lives too. I just don't know how long I can keep this up. I tell myself things will get better, well I don't see anything getting better. I'm ready for an end, but there's always something that's holding me back, although idk what it is.