Back again. Christ, and I was doing better, I really was. I'm so tired. I need to last a few months, that's all. Then I'm out for a bit. I just can't escape it, because they're family, and I love them, but they make me feel like I'm nothing. It's the most ridiculous thing in the world, and i hate myself for it. Sorry, I'm very drunk right now, I'm lucky to be able to type. Hopefully, I'll feel better sober. Christ, I miss her, the woman I loved. Sorry about this.