If you OD'd on anything it's after that the problems hit so if it was that then you should go the the ED.
I am not sure when I next see Sam. She cancelled last week and I emailed her asking if we were meeting Wednesday and I haven't heard anything back yet so I am not really sure what is happening.
It's 2 attempts in a week now so I know I need to do something about it but I am not really sure what. I see the Pdoc in 2 weeks. Dreading it as not really sure why he wants to see me.
I know I wont say anything to him about it as he has power and it scares me. Not decided yet if I will be mentioning to Sam about it either. The swallowing the needle still has the potential to cause damage. If I mentioned it I think she would have to break confidentiality as I am potentially putting myself in a high risk of harming myself. So I doubt I'll be mentioning anything. The way I see it now is that it may still work and I don't want to let anything get in the way of that. If I tell anyone then it means trips to hospital, possible time off placement and explaining. I have been in hospital to the knowledge of my family 3-4 times in less than a yr. That's once with the infection that I picked up on my travels which they knew the truth about, in September where I cut really bad and they cut all my clothes off me. I had to call my brother make some lame ass excuse about me losing my clothes and was some heart rate thing with it going too fast, once where I cut and they found out back in November, and then with the infection in my leg from cutting that I told them was a UTI. I also have this needle in my arm which they think was an accident which I have had to go to hospital appointments and will have to maybe have an operation to get it out.
So no, i wont do anything about it as means explanations. I am not doing it.