Here's to hoping that I don't post here anymore. I mean no offense, but it is a little morbid to be posting a suicide forum. And depressing. And I don't need that depression any more than I've already got it! I hope to be over it soon! But I am going to reach out to my love, and ask her if she wants me back, in some fashion, in her life. I will either be shit upon, or torn up inside, or responded to nicely. I think my odds of the latter are about 1 in 3. We'll see. I hope I am not back! Wish me luck!