Well I basically summed it up in the title. Im 38 and have 3 boys 20, 18, 8. They live with my parents cuz I'm just a complete mess. Have no job have applied everywhere. I have the best parents alive. I was strung out on pills like 8 years ago and was lean for 5 but tried that dog food and it got me now I've just completely drained my parents savings by using excuse after excuse don't see my sons more than a couple times a week cuz I don't want them to see me like this. I'm with a man who Luis me dearly but he is in the same boat. We r functional junkies and r looking for employment I have a degree in computer science and he is the best and I mean best tile man in the state, but there is just no work anywhere. I pay my bills, groceries, etc. but what is ripping my heart out is ding this to my parents. I've went through thousands and thousands of dollars and they r at the age of retirement and shouldnt have to put up with this shit! I luv them so much they're all I have. I'm an only child and have not one friend. I believe I'm bipolar also and am literally at the end of my rope but ive been hanging on for one reason and one reason on,y my 8 year old Conner. He is my heart but I want what's best for I'm and don't want him to see his omma like this. I don't know where to turn or what to do. If anyone could just talk to me I'd appreciate it more tha u could ever imagine. Help!