Mods: I'm really not sure where to put this at all. Please move it to the appropriate place. I am truly sorry for the inconvenience. I contracted herpes at a very, very young age. I was, to say the very least, abused as an infant/toddler/child and will always have to live with the virus I've contracted from such. My outbreaks have usually not been so severe, thankfully, and they always were far spaced out--sometimes going a year or more in between. Lately I've been having some outbreaks though. They are getting worse and worse it seems. I'm too afraid to try the prescription medication for outbreaks. The side effects include very scary things like seizures and death (which I would assume would be long and painful after becoming senile/delirious). I was wondering if anyone can help? Does anyone know what can relieve the pain, at least? Please? It's so bad to say but I'm really considering killing myself now. I then won't have to deal with this sort of crap. If death doesn't come, I'm also considering removing parts of my flesh that suffer from the virus. It's driving me completely insane. It is a constant reminded of my past. If it just didn't hurt so much maybe I could cope or something.