one of my best guy friends from camp killed himself (at camp) last night. i saw him a week ago and he seemed fine. obviously he wasnt. when i went up there, we sat around the fire drinking and talking. i was talking alone with him and my best female friend from camp that i drove up with. we sort of had a thing last year when we were CITs (Counclers In Training) together. i loved him. im so sad. this makes me want to die so badly. i already miss him. i cant stop crying. im a wreck.