Well, I just heard about an hour ago that one of my childhood abusers, my ex stepfather died a year ago. He has messed up so much of myself and my life. I will never be the same. Nightmares, flashbacks and fears will never go away because of him. I now know he can not hurt me again, besides the never ending effects of the abuse. I won't have to look around in crowds wondering "is he here?" Something that bothers me as well is.... after I heard that he'd died, I felt a little relieved and so far nothing else. So far, I haven't felt bad that he died. Am I a cold hearted person?