I'm only 16. I dont want to die. I just want out. Ive talked to him about whats bothering me but everything i think of isnt really worth killing myself over. Nothing is worth killing myself over actually. ive been clean from pills since January but I am still struggling with cutting. Ive been trying to find ways to relieve stress like crying but I just cant cry anymore. Im so in love with him but we have to hide our relationship from almost everyone because my family hates him because of the age difference. I just want to be able to be with him. Im still considering suicide...I just want it to stop.