I am way to far near the edge, and about to finish it off, however, based on peeps here i have told my mother. I will be going to a ward to get help as its so bad as i always said. I just wanted to let people know, that i will be doing ok hopefully we will see. And I wanted to thank everyone in this forum, peeps i have spoke to from here. You all make a difference. Thanks from the bottom of my heart, yall saved me as i was going to before i found this site. Much love , Alarius.