Hi all, My name is Dylan, and i'm from South Africa. I've been struggling with depression and anxiety since I was a young boy. It all became utterly unbearable when I was studying and living Austria. I woke up one morning with my heart filled with anxiety and no motivation at all. At first I thought it was just the home sickness and seasonal depression(coming from a very sunny country, it was the logical diagnosis). I finally decided to quit and come home. Unfortunately it never got better. I've lost all my friends, and i'm unable to find a job due to the debilitating depression and overwhelming fear of being rejected. My father seems to think i'm just a lazy sponger, and does not really understand mental illness. Therefore i'm afraid of telling my parents what's actually wrong with me. I was always told to suck it up and keep my chin up, but I can't do it anymore. That's why i'm seeking help here. Thanks for reading!! Have blessed day!!