Hi, my name is Chris and I'm 20 years old. I'm extremely shy and get very nervous in most social situations(took me a year to register on here ha). Also I've never been in a relationship or have actually had a friend who was a girl that I considered a friend. anyways some background... Ive been in therapy since I was 14 but stopped going about a year ago because ive been misdiagnosed twice (bipolar and psychosis) so i just gave up on it. I have maybe 1-2 friends that I latch on to. I try to make friends with their friends but i always feel like I'm intruding or not wanted in their group. I was ordered into a hospital by my doctor when i was 18 for 2months because he felt I was a threat to myself and others. I used to cut but stopped. I guess I should mention that I've been self medicating (cocaine,mdma,ketamine and daily pot usage) for about 8 years and started the harder drugs about 5 years ago. I don't consider myself addicted to any of these but I feel it could be a potential problem later. Actually doctors have told me my "chemical imbalance" could be caused by my drug use. All I know is it numbs things and helps me cope day to day. All around I feel depressed,empty,hopeless and angry most the time. All I know is that I'm walking down a very lonely path. I'm sure others are in the same boat as me but I'm not sure. Well I think thats enough information for a introduction(sorry if it's long) anyways its nice to meet everyone and maybe ill see you guys around here. take care.