hey everyone, my name is jamie. I guess i dont know where to start. Im 19 and it seems i've had to go threw way to much at this age already and it seems to hard right now. 2 of the biggest things at the moment, my child hood friend took his own life alittle over a year ago and to this day i still cant believe he is gone. My other friend chris died last month.. Its still unreal. I used to live with the best girl in the world.. boy did i mess that up. I swear she was the one, everytime we kissed i got butterflies, everytime i saw her i just light up.. now shes with another guy and wont speak to me. I saw them in the store the otherday and started to ball in front of everyone and it was really embarassing. I guess im just looking for a new scene right now. Thinking about moving to get away from everything and start over.. Everything just seems so bad right now, Like everyone, I just want to feel loved and want to be with someone who I care about like my ex again. Its just so hard.. Sorry if i rambled on to much, thanks for viewing.