So obviously I am here for a reason, and found this site like some of you may have. I googled "suicide". I am 21 years old, very pretty, and always smiling. You know, the type of girl who you wouldn't dare ever think was "suicidal" because her life is "so perfect". I've contemplated it for a while now, and each day the thoughts are getting easier and I feel less and less bad about it each time. Sounds stupid, but I act like I am "10 feet tall and bullet proof"... when really I just don't want to be here anymore. I'd jump in a second if I knew I could fly, but the risk of falling is what I am a coward about. Looking forward to SF and thanks for reading my intro.