Hi. So, I've been an on and off cutter for seven years. I cut yesterday. I just had to do it. I wanted to hurt myself. I needed it. I also did it because I felt like I couldn't feel anything for real. Like I wasn't a real person, or, I don't know, I don't know what I'm saying. I don't know. I just know I cut again. < Mod edit Hazel: Triggering > Last time I cut it made me feel a little better for like fifteen minutes and then I started to feel even worse than before. This time that didn't happen. I did feel as bad as before, or maybe even worse, but it happened much more gradually. So, I think it was a good idea to cut. Have you ever felt like this? Thanks.