Hey, it's nice to be here, where I won't get judged for something I didn't do. The reason I am even on this forum is for one simple little thing: I tried to commit suicide three times now, and I desperately want help. My name is Jay to everyone online. I'm 15, and I'm a girl. I do not care to reveal my real name to you all. Do not take it personally, it's just the way I am. I stumbled on this site when I was feeling really down and looking for a forum that wouldn't care if I up and died, something like on MySpace, where there are mean, desperate people waiting around every corner. I just wanted another excuse to kill myself, y'know? Then, I found this place and I discovered that I wanted to get better. I didn't want to cut, I didn't want to dwell on that my step father did to me. I want to feel whole again.