Hi, Im Kenny..I feel crazy doing this but I need to vent. Im 30yrs old. I feel like my best days are already far behind me.Nothing gets better. I used to sell real estate and Ive been broke ever since the market bottomed out. I dont wanna hang out with my girlfriends. Dont wanna answer the phone. I can only tell my mom how bad Im doing. Lost my car to Title Pawn. Mortgage and light bill way over due. Water company just locked my meter. I have 14$ to my name. No family here. The family I do have is in NY anddoing just as bad as I am and have always looked to me for support. I have no one to turn to for help.. I dont wanna kill myself. I dont know how. I do wanna die. Rather, I wish I died a few years ago. Back when I had insurance and ways to pay for my own funeral. Back when I wasnt doing so bad and I could have been remembered in better way. No future, no water ,no car and no job. My 15 mins are up. No where to turn to..I pray.I believe in God. I dont believe in myself and I just wish that I didnt live to see these days.