Hey I'm new to the boards, joined a few days ago. I would've made a thread sooner but exams got in the way. But basically I'm very depressed, thats kinda why I'm here. I'm sick and tired of all the pressures in my life. I'm tired of being alone, in more than one ways. I hate being pressured to perfection by my loved ones and I hate that fact that no one really listens to me. For years I really wanted to kill myself but I never did because I thought it would be the most selfish thing to do, I am not and have never been selfish. But now I realized that I should go after the one and only thing that I really want from my life, my own death. I understand now that I should be allowed to selfish at least once in my life, it feels like everyone else have been completely selfish towards me. Well thats just a quick profile of myself by myself to you. I guess it would be ok to go straight to the point and talk about my most intimate desire under the cloak of anomaly. But I'm not in this forum show off my depression, I'm here to talk about it. I want to make my choices after I've completely thought it out and heard both sides of the argument just to be fair. So don't be shy to converse with me.