my name is Itai i live in israel, and since there's no hebrew speaking forum for this matter i have decided to come here. as of recently i am single and not out of choice... after 2 years of deep connection she as you say dumped me and i cant seem to find an answer to any question i have... i am tired of lies of religion tired of lies of teachers and mostly tired of lies of loved ones. i share no compassion to the people who surround me as they are simply greedy self centered and outrageously sarcastic. it seems that my friends are not much of friends and the only things that keep me happy are Books, computers and television who help me escape the reality i suffer from, but altho they make me happy they dont replace life. my love dumped me while saying she still loves me, altho saying that she doesn't want to speak to me or see me at all. she was the only person i ever trusted my life with and the only person who truly cared for me and for my problems but now nobody hears my pain and nobody really cares they all just "show" interest but you can see they dont mean it. after all of this im going choose my way out of this world... im going to take a <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> and end the nightmare which i call life.