I'm not the most supportive, but please know that I'm thinking of you. I'm going through a very difficult time in my life. My marriage of 10 years has fallen apart within seconds. I've always had suicidal tendencies, I was in inpatient treatment for a lot of my high school years. Nearly 20 years from then, I feel like I need to seek out treatment again. I have the same overwhelming feelings of wanting to harm myself (note: I was a self-harmer from age 12-25) right now. I haven't and I've learned that it is better to talk about it than do it. I haven't self-harmed in about 5 years now. At the same time I don't know how to deal with what I'm going through. I'm currently on no anti-depressants/anxiety medications as I have been in the past, practically my entire life. That might be making things worse. I am in a fog right now. I am glad that there isn't any weapons or worse to harm myself with. I can't think straight. I am reading over some of the other threads. I don't know how to reply and be supportive, but please know that I'm thinking of you too. This is never a good place to be.