Hey I just joined this forum today because I feel overwhelmed. I might just pour things out in posts as a result of my fragmented thoughts, but this seems to be an accepting community (although im not sure if its necessarily a good thing that my words are danced around in fear of irritating me enough to be irrational). I guess its just my selfishness and neurosis that caused me to join here. I have this drive to make some sort of connection with other people so I dont feel so alone, but from time to time I actually realize how arrogant I am for thinking that the world should accommodate me in this search for a connection. When i questioned the idea of "dancing around my words" is directly related to my search for a connection. I'm a 12th grader at a high school in the US, and my muddled thoughts usually lead to the repeated conclusion that suicide is the only solution to a defective mind.