Hey i found this website while looking for methods on how to end my life, the idea of it helped me at the time and i was hoping that joining and talking to people on here would help me in the long run.
I kno it sounds typical but the reason im here is because my boyfriend of 2 years and i broke up. i had depression for 4 years prior to meeting him and when we got together everything just went away, i relyed on him for everything, he was my rock, my backbone. but i guess it all got too much for him, i put too much pressure on him and couldnt stop because he was the only one i knew that could make everything ok. so now he just wants to b friends for a while, he says he needs some freedom which is understandable considering how damanding i am of him. but the thing is that just b4 we broke up i found out that he had been lying to me about things for about 6 months...so y do i still love him? and y do i want to die if hes not by my side? and y do i keep putting pressure on him even tho i kno how difficult i make things for him? i just wish we could start all over again and that we could b together for the rest of our lives. i give him everything, i love him wit every part of me....i wish he could understand that i dont want to go on with my life unless he is mine. :sad:
I kno it sounds typical but the reason im here is because my boyfriend of 2 years and i broke up. i had depression for 4 years prior to meeting him and when we got together everything just went away, i relyed on him for everything, he was my rock, my backbone. but i guess it all got too much for him, i put too much pressure on him and couldnt stop because he was the only one i knew that could make everything ok. so now he just wants to b friends for a while, he says he needs some freedom which is understandable considering how damanding i am of him. but the thing is that just b4 we broke up i found out that he had been lying to me about things for about 6 months...so y do i still love him? and y do i want to die if hes not by my side? and y do i keep putting pressure on him even tho i kno how difficult i make things for him? i just wish we could start all over again and that we could b together for the rest of our lives. i give him everything, i love him wit every part of me....i wish he could understand that i dont want to go on with my life unless he is mine. :sad: