I've attempted suicide twice. I used to be all kinds of medication. None helped. I finally learned to live without meds (4 years) and was actually doing okay until recently. My boyfriend dumped me. Had to move into my mothers. (I'm 37). My health isn't the best. I make $8.00 an hour and can't afford to see a doctor. Actually I can afford to see a doctor, I can't afford bloodwork or x-rays etc. I had a complete meltdown at work today and called/texted the few friends I have and 12 hours later haven't heard a thing from any of them. I'm lonely and spend any time off work sitting in my bedroom staring at the wall with my 2 dogs. Can anyone see why suicide is starting to look good to me.