Hey. I am new here and looking for support. So far my summer break from college has been miserable. I have no friends at home. My parents always argue. I dont have a job. I feel worthless. I feel like after I grad college it will go back to being like this summer so I just feel like everything is pointless. I spend all day alone in my room. Sometimes go to the pool. I dont eat much. My parents have no idea how I feel. I felt this way for 10+ years. I got up the courage last year to see a counselor in school since its free but I cant see her over the summer. I am always thinking of suicide. I just want to give up. I will never do anything cause I know I will just fail at it. This is the side of me no one knows. This is the more "happier side" I am going into my super senior year of college. I am from NJ. I love amusement parks. I collect nail polish. Avril Lavigne and Pink are my favorite singers. The Middle and the Ellen Degeneres show are my favorite things to watch on tv. I recently discovered I am introverted. So I hope to make some friends here... if anyone cares about me.