Hi I'm ******. I've been depressed for about 2 years. Earlier this year I took a look in the mirror realised I was fat and have resorted to starving and restricting to lose weight, which apparently means I have an eating disorder. The reason I say this is because I reckon that's why suicide has been on my mind so much, because it all seems so hopeless and I can't lose the weight and I'm never going to be good enough so I don't know why I'm trying. Also I was raped earlier this year, and my mother's an alcoholic. I came across this site looking for suicide methods, but thought I might try talking to people with the same problems first. So yeah, hello :smile:.