I've suffered from social anxiety most of my life. Though I have a job, I absolutely hate it and everyone treats me as a joke there. All my life I feel no one has ever really gotten to know me because I'm so anxious around people. I've been going to a variety of therapists (including ones that specialize in social anxiety), and have been on Lexapro since June, but nothing seems to be helping. I feel like life is passing me by. I can't get a girlfriend because no one really wants to get to know me. The last one I had was 6 months ago, but she just used me as a rebound. Unfortunately, that was the first girl I really fell for. Even now I still think about her even though she moved on to someone else long ago. I don't know what else I can try to help things get better. Sometimes they get better for a little while but I always end right back up into this hole. I tried church last night but felt completely out of place. Suicide is a constant thought. Help?