***HUGS*** Dave_N and ~Young-Violet~ and everyone!! Thank you for checking on me :console::hug:
Been doing fairly well considering, although up and down. Had been fairly stable, able to get a grip when i begin losing it. I have been quite exhausted and a bit ill. Weeks behind checking emails, returning calls, letters, doing any kind of work, etc.
I'm not into New Year's resolutions, but considering it's been one year since i've actually done much of anything, engaged with my life, or consistently done my work, I have come up with a few small ones which I have been trying to focus on...even when i'm not feeling too well and having a difficult time.
So, then, ugh, egh, ugh...two nights ago turned rather poorly and been kind of trying to fight it off since that time. Yesterday major trigger. I've had some assist with this, and it has been rather helpful in keeping me grounded...although right now, I am back on my own hoping i can do this.
For some reason, i suspect perhaps i am vulnerable and sensitive at the moment, as well as utterly exhausted, i've been having some mild (?) ptsd issues which lead to feeling rather down. It's been been many many years since anything has served as a trigger. This past year i've had some difficulty with this, although understandably. A few things this week, and yesterday hit rather hard, and it's still quite intense at the moment :sad: I am trying. Kind of difficult when one is ill and exhausted. Just hope i can fight this.
The stuff in my head is being troublesome.
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s*** for all and i apologize i've not been very supportive lately. I'm just so very exhausted. Totally drained. It's even difficult to just type.