Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by 41021, Dec 24, 2010.

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  1. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    this is the crisis forum right?

    i think i am a walking crisis
  2. absolution

    absolution Forum Buddy

    what's going on? :hug:
  3. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    Where do i begin
    to tell the story
    of a life so fucked and screwed
    the g_damned story of
    a reckless life

    i am sooooo
    messed up
    actually i think the operative word is; sorry phrase; messed up
    it's not even worth talking about
    they are just words
    which do not convey feeling
    which do not convey much of anything

    ugh that says it all


    I am truly losing it
    who has never lost it completely
    i am losing...no
    i have lost it
  4. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    Hi. Tell us some more?
  5. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    my gut says to scream at the top of my lungs;


    My senses tell me;
    just...take your marlin, feed her, and go to the pond while it is still dark, and the world sleeps
  6. absolution

    absolution Forum Buddy

    :hug: I love you! I hope you know that. I am always here for you. No matter what. I wont let you lose it. Promise
  7. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    Screaming can be sooooooooo therapeutic!
    Scream and let it all out - not the other option please x
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  8. jxdama

    jxdama Staff Member Safety & Support

    let us help you
  9. ~Young-Violet~

    ~Young-Violet~ Banned Member

    SCREEM in to a pillow, let your emotions out it feels great :)
  10. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    Much love to all of you. Just wanted to stop by and send a great big, yet gentle; ******hug****** for each of you. Then perhaps we all share one big group hug?

    Wanted to thank each one of you as well. It does help, to know there are people who care enough to verbalize a few words of support, and this does mean a great deal to me, as it helps me to not feel so much alone.

    I don't feel so well. I am trying hard. Honestly. I just do not feel so well atm.

    Exhausted. Tired. Sadness. Fear. ...but there are moments interjected with positive, forward thinking thoughts :)

    ...and sometimes, i just feel so alone, which is rather a foreign feeling to me.

    Do know, i am trying.

    I hold each of you close to me heart. Sending uplifting thoughts to all for a brighter day today. Hope your struggles are not so difficult today.

    Thank you to each of you **hugs** from me to you!
  11. ~Young-Violet~

    ~Young-Violet~ Banned Member

    Sending lodes of :hug:'s how are you?
  12. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    How are you feeling Kali? :hug:
  13. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    ***HUGS*** Dave_N and ~Young-Violet~ and everyone!! Thank you for checking on me :console::hug:

    Been doing fairly well considering, although up and down. Had been fairly stable, able to get a grip when i begin losing it. I have been quite exhausted and a bit ill. Weeks behind checking emails, returning calls, letters, doing any kind of work, etc.

    I'm not into New Year's resolutions, but considering it's been one year since i've actually done much of anything, engaged with my life, or consistently done my work, I have come up with a few small ones which I have been trying to focus on...even when i'm not feeling too well and having a difficult time.

    So, then, ugh, egh, ugh...two nights ago turned rather poorly and been kind of trying to fight it off since that time. Yesterday major trigger. I've had some assist with this, and it has been rather helpful in keeping me grounded...although right now, I am back on my own hoping i can do this.

    For some reason, i suspect perhaps i am vulnerable and sensitive at the moment, as well as utterly exhausted, i've been having some mild (?) ptsd issues which lead to feeling rather down. It's been been many many years since anything has served as a trigger. This past year i've had some difficulty with this, although understandably. A few things this week, and yesterday hit rather hard, and it's still quite intense at the moment :sad: I am trying. Kind of difficult when one is ill and exhausted. Just hope i can fight this.

    The stuff in my head is being troublesome.

    ***hugs*** for all and i apologize i've not been very supportive lately. I'm just so very exhausted. Totally drained. It's even difficult to just type.
  14. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

  15. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Glad to hear that you're doing better Kali. :hug:
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