Hey guys, So I've been, i guess, depressed for the last few years because of a lot of personal issues with family, etc. I've read a lot into suicide, nihilism, etc i guess these past years and, i guess, i've developed a mild obsession with the idea of it. Today has been a weird day. I found out about an indian girl, hs senior, who attempted suicide in FL. Don't know if she's dead or not, but it's been bothering me. I don't know if it's the fact that she's an indian girl, with her being around the age of a lot of my cousins, etc. I don't know her. But I just wish I had gotten the opportunity to talk to her. It's somewhat tormenting me, not knowing what troubles she went through at that age that made her take her life. She seemed like such a beautiful, energetic girl. I don't know what this means, but, I kinda wish it had been me instead of her.