Well hi! I'm Ziba and I'm new here (obviously). I've been trying of what to say about myself but I still don't really know so bear with me! I've been suicidal since 2010 and life hasn't really given me a break, instead of getting any better everything has seemed to have gotten worse. I keep telling myself "well, this really is rock bottom" but I somehow keep digging lmao. I guess the best way to explain it is for around 3 years I've been "passively" suicidal, like just feeling like I wanna die but not really doing much about it, y'know? Only in the past 2 years things got from bad to worse, and this year I ended up isolating myself from everyone apart from immediate family, and even with them (specifically my mom) I can't share how I'm really feeling because they usually say they can't deal with my problems and I have to sort them out myself, and with no friends now, im really lonely and I having no place to talk about how I feel really sucks! So I ended up finding this forum the other night and here I am. I don't really know what else to say, there's a lot of stuff thats happened to make me feel like this but it's all probably too heavy to say when I'm just introducing myself. Anyway, hi!