I'm not expecting to get much help out of this but I thought I'd make a thread and get some stuff off my chest anyway~ I've been suicidal since I was like 15 but only as an adult realised how depressed I actually am. My problem is though I don't really know why I am depressed or even why I want to die...I am just miserable 24/7, no matter where I am, who I'm with or what I'm doing. Talking about this with most people is utterly pointless. I say I'm depressed, they ask why, I say I don't know, they say "then you have no reason to be depressed". I haven't told very many people that I'm suicidal but the few I have told (mostly just friends online) haven't taken me seriously or just plain not cared at all. I'm supposed to be getting some sort of therapy soon but I just know it isn't gonna help. I don't wanna tell any of my family how suicidal I actually am because I just know they'll have me sectioned somewhere. I've driven myself crazy these past 6 or 7 years of my life trying to fight off the suicidal thoughts I have in my mind every day and pretending to be happy but I can't do it anymore. I can't even sleep properly my mind is so screwed up. I am jealous of happy people. I know that my life isn't (and hasn't ever been) bad, but I still just feel so miserable and I dunno why. All I can think about is being dead. I'm a terrible, selfish person.