Hey folks. I'm Syd. I came here I guess to find people going through similar experiences as me and of course for support and friendship. Most people see me as an enthusiastic, quick-witted, extroverted drama student-type, but I have been suffering from Clinical Depression since February 2009, and have have two mental breakdowns since. I get bouts of suicidal thoughts, and I'm going through the worst one ever right now. I most probably will not kill myself because if i was going to I would have just done it. I have no idea whats stopping me, as I have attempted suicide in the past. I suffer from extreme loneliness as of the last few months and feel full of negative emotions and I actually want to explode. It's like being trapped in a room with a ceiling too low to stand and the walls to close together to lie down....just stuck in a little ball. I have no real friends anymore...theyve drifted away or quite frankly just put up with me/bully me (no not really friends) and my FAMILY are the worst culprits for this.... anyway enough of my moaning. I try to stay positive and happy even though I'm not so hi guys!! I'm Syd from North Wales, I enjoy singing, writing songs, acting and playing games. I'm an extroverted guy, except when I'm at home then I lock myself in my room! I look forward to meeting some cool people.