Hey there
I'm sorry to hear you're going through a rough time. But regardless of what your situation is, I just want to say that there's always hope, that things can get better. You're not hopeless, even if you might feel like you are. There are always ways we can make life more tolerable, or even pleasant. But when we are in a bad place, we don't see those ways, we only see despair. You did a good job by joining this site. It means you still have some hope left, that people will care about you, and show compassion. Sometimes, we need support from others, even if it's random strangers online.