I'm new to this board. I'm often suicidal, but I find the beauty of life inspiring. I find inspiration in many beliefs, but I find my home in the LDS faith. I play piano, guitar and sing. I'm a beginner in piano and guitar, but I love them. They're a great outlet. Can't beat distortion for getting anger out, lol. I've also written poetry and done other creative writing since I was a teenager. I really need to get back to writing without editing or chastising myself. I act like I'm okay, but I'm really not. You could say that makes me a good actress. I used to hit myself (tried for bruises), but I haven't for nearly 10 years. I come up against the addiction every day lately, though. It's hard not to return to it. It's hard not to start cutting, or overdosing on my medication. I hope this will be a good, supportive place for me, and I hope I can offer support too. We're all in this together, right?