Well, I came here tonight because...I pretty much have a history of depression. If I remember right, it kind of runs in the family. Anyway, it spiked with my first real suicide attempt in the high school. Long story short, I came home from the ER with one side of my face still tingling. And I wound up on Lexopro during college. I went off it after graduation, but lately, due to several factors — e.g. job woes, living-at-home anxiety, eating/weight problems — I've been inching closer to the edge. I feel like I come off as a pretty whiny broken record to the friends I usually vent to, and now I'm feeling bad about that, too. Don't really have the time or funds right now to start seeing a professional, so I thought maybe this comm. could help... I want to get better. I hate feeling like I don't want to do anything except lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling in silence. But at those same times, I feel like I butt up against an invisible wall. Like I don't even feel comfortable in my own skin. ...help! Please?