New here on this website and right now at work having a panic attack. I'm bi-polar and have a 20 yr old daughter in the Army who was medically evacuated from Afghanistan after 8 months because she was suicidal... They flew her to Germany where she was hospitalized for a week before they flew her back to the states to her duty station. I was a wreck because I did not hear from her for 4 days. Thank God for the family rediness support administrator at her duty station which gave me updates daily on her status. As soon as she got back to her station, we drove all night to help her get settled (and of course to help me keep my sanity). Now 2 weeks ago, my 14 yr old daughter started having panic attacks and is now seeing a psychiatrist. Then, as if things are bad enough... my 22 yr old nephew committed suicide in Feb of 2010 (he had a 4.0 in computer science and had only 2 months until graduating from college). A couple of months ago, his sister became suicidal and had to go back home from college out of state. Our family is screwed up and I can't help but feel so guilty that my daughters are the way they are because of me. AND I recently was diagnosed with Metabolic Syndrom and gained a bunch of weight and I feel like a fat slob. I have always had to watch my weight, but now I keep gaining even though I was exercising and eating 1200 to 1500 calories a day. Hopefully on 5/18 when I go to my first appointment at the Metabolic clinic they will be able to help me. Since I had kept gaining weight, I gave up and just don't give a chit anymore. I went from 135 to 195 in a few months... sucks to be me 
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