Some of you might remember me, maybe. I used to be active on this site about maybe 6 years ago so maybe everyone I knew have moved on and are doing really well. I sure hope so. At some point I began to fill myself with hopes and dreams all thanks to everyone who were so helpful to me. I miss them even though I can't think of any names lol I'm such a loser ha ha. And guess what? After being away from this site for just a little while; I fell apart. And I just couldn't face myself. I felt ashamed. Like everyone's efforts just went into a complete waste. I'm such a waste of time. A case of sorry woesome human being. I hate myself for what I have become. Useless. Worthless. Not important. I'm not needed. Here I am. Here again. Here on SF. Why? I don't know. Maybe I'm just so pitiful after all these years that I no longer feel like I can handle myself by myself. I'm a pathetic excuse for love and attention, I guess. I don't know. Maybe I do know. Well, enough about me. I kinda wish I wasn't such a loser. Please pretty please forgive me for being such a sorry case. Btw SF, thank you for the birthday wishes I got every single year even after I stopped logging on. I always felt so much better when I kept getting happy birthday wishes year after year of site inactivity. I don't even know how I still have an account here lol Thank-you SF for being there for me after all these years even when I had turned my back on you.