My name is Anish, I'm 21, from London and I've been suicidal for a long time, I've suffered from social anxiety for as long as I can remember and I've been severely depressed for months, for which I'm on medication. Suicide has been on my mind for a long time, and I spend too much time looking on pro-suicide websites. I have no friends, I'm a disappointment to my family and I failed university so I have little job prospects. At school I was a loner who was bullied and my parents were always angry at me. I'd rather end it than feel the shame that I've felt for so long.