I am OK, but someone in my family commited suicide 2 months ago. I am so angry, to the point that I don't sleep. Trying to tie up everything, what led my sister in law to taking her own life? Her son and her partner never got on, but things seemed to escalate prior to her killing herself. The son and partner can't even get their stories straight, about when and who saw her last and what was the conversation. Was it something one of them said to her that morning that pushed her over the edge? Why are they not telling the truth. Why didn't she leave a note? The rest of the family(her mother, her other brother, and her sister) can't bring themselves to deal with the loss.It is left to me and my husband, to pick up the pieces, to keep returning to the scene(her house), to organise funeral, to ID the body(because her son couldn't), to hire solicitors for the estate, to clean the house, and worst of all to act as mediators between her son and her partner. She took her own life, but right now I feel that she took a lot of my own. I am so angry at her, I am angry at her son and her partner for contributing to her misery with their constant fights and bullyings, ultimatiums to choose one. I am angry to the rest of the family for not dealing with the aftermath, for not helping me and my husband, even someone to go feed the fish once a week until the estate is settled will be great help. By the way, the son will inherit 100%, he has known that all along but plays the feel sory for me, still. We didn't have chance to grieve, I am slowly running out of power, I am tired, I am irritable, I even think that I am falling in a dark space, reaching for people to hear me, to help me. Can't ask that of my family, because I am the one who has been their rock. I though I know what suicide does to the people left behind. Now I know I had no clue.