I'll start with something positive - some things that I like are travel, animals (especially dogs), and food (I have to stop overdoing that one). I'm in my early thirties. I feel overwhelmed with the things about myself that I have to repair - low self-esteem, low self-confidence, lack of career success (I have a dead-end job even though I have a university degree), lack of assertiveness, and a general cluelessness about how to get control over my life. I'm so disappointed in how my life has turned out and I feel a lack of control over so many things. I feel trapped and frustrated. Sometimes I think about what a relief it would be to die. I read self-help books and advice books on different topics to try and figure things out. I've started reading a book on assertiveness. Last time I was at the library I saw a book called "How To Make Life Work" so I put that on my long list of things to read. I joined this forum because I want to communicate with people who understand me and I hope that I can help others who feel the way I do.