How did I end up here?
I'm 27, in the UK, and desperately looking for answers. I'm alone, I'm bipolar and so very far down that I can't see an exit right now. I'm trying so hard not to be suicidal, because I know the pain that suicide causes others, but at times like this my own pain is so intense that I almost can't think about anybody else.
I'd like to chat to someone but can't get into the chatroom. I tried to phone Samaritans but my phone crapped out. Well, I've never been lucky. I haven't been at work in a month but that doesn't matter - I'm a PhD student - nobody relies on me and nobody notices if I'm not there. I need help so bad. I'm a self-harmer and a binger. I finally made an appointment with my GP today but it was useless. She wants me to come back next week. I really don't know if I can last another week in this state. I've never been this disconnected before.
I stumbled on this site, and thought it might help to be around other people who know how it feels to be so low, so here I am, hello.
That's all.
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I'm 27, in the UK, and desperately looking for answers. I'm alone, I'm bipolar and so very far down that I can't see an exit right now. I'm trying so hard not to be suicidal, because I know the pain that suicide causes others, but at times like this my own pain is so intense that I almost can't think about anybody else.
I'd like to chat to someone but can't get into the chatroom. I tried to phone Samaritans but my phone crapped out. Well, I've never been lucky. I haven't been at work in a month but that doesn't matter - I'm a PhD student - nobody relies on me and nobody notices if I'm not there. I need help so bad. I'm a self-harmer and a binger. I finally made an appointment with my GP today but it was useless. She wants me to come back next week. I really don't know if I can last another week in this state. I've never been this disconnected before.
I stumbled on this site, and thought it might help to be around other people who know how it feels to be so low, so here I am, hello.
That's all.
S
x