My name is Scott. I'm 56, a musician, now a homemaker with an 8 yr. old boy and a great younger wife with a career that's on the upswing. I have been seeing a doctor, at first because of thoughts that I have ADHD. But it's turned out to be more, much more than that. There have been feelings bottled up inside this "class clown" since my days in high school that are coming to the surface. It scares me because I have been suicidal for months. And for those around me who know (not many), they are scared. So am I. That's the beginning of my story, but mostly I just wanted to introduce myself.