Hi all, I don't really have the energy right now to elaborate but to make a long story short my life has been nothing short of an uphill battle, and I am tired. I am tired of trying to make my life the best it can be and failing miserably. Tired of staying in the same fucked up miserable circumstances for years on end. Tired of not being where I want to be and no matter how hard I try to get there I never get there. I am in my 20s I am supposed to be having the time of my life but my adolescence and 20s has brought me nothing but pain and misery. I;ve been in treatment for years and it;s not working, I;ve tried many different things. I am so tired of everything, tired of struggling. I want it to end it all, but I am too afraid of what lies on the "other side". I wish I knew what to expect, so it would be so easy to blow my brains out into the tranquility of nothingness. I want peace, i hate my life circumstances, I am too tired to elaborate, that is all. fuck it all.