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Hi, I guess...

Discussion in 'Welcome' started by powerdoom, Aug 17, 2011.

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  1. powerdoom

    powerdoom Member

    Okay so here is a little about me...

    My name is Ax, I am a 20 y/o guy and I live in eastern Europe, lets just leave it at that.

    I actually wrote my entire life story here but I deleted that and I'll just say the conclusion - I am a Nergin (look it up if you don't know what it means).

    Other than that I hate my life and I want to die, don't have the balls to do it myself but if I had a chance to be put down like a dog I would take it.
    And don't even start with the whole try to get a girlfriend thing, believe me I've tried and I could write depressive novels about it.
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  2. Jelly

    Jelly Well-Known Member

    Hey Ax!

    Welcome to the forum.

    Please know how proud I am of you to be here posting. It shows you are a very strong person.

    Please know that any time you need a listening ear, my PM inbox is open.

    Take care and look forward to talking to you. <3

  3. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Welcome. :)
  4. powerdoom

    powerdoom Member

    There is nothing else to say about me I guess. I am in pretty bad shape..... more about my shitty life is in the thread in crisis forum.

    Just one thing - I can't smile, I mean, I am so depressed that I physically can't do it, so don't even expect me to be nice to anyone, I actually don't care about any of you at all, I'll just be honest.
  5. Jelly

    Jelly Well-Known Member

    And it's okay to feel that way, that's why we're all here and that's why you're here. We're just happy knowing you are safe.
  6. powerdoom

    powerdoom Member

    <edit moderator total eclipse being rude> and that's why you are suicidal... the difference is that I just have very bad conditions (in every sense) that's why I am depressed, I don't give up on life that <mode edit: insulting>, but sometimes I just can't take it all anymore.
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  7. powerdoom

    powerdoom Member

    Ok I expressed myself badly here....

    What I mean is that my personality isn't that depressive, like many people here might have... I am depressed because of my condition(s).

    Do you get it? I have never been a happy go lucky type but I also am not the kind of extremely depressive personality ... I try to socialize with people etc.. but My life just fucking sucks.

    Some people just whine about everything but I have serious problems... and my problems are somewhat unique so I feel like I am alone with my problems.
  8. Jelly

    Jelly Well-Known Member

    I get a sense of where you're coming from. To say I understand fully would be a lie, but I do understand to an extent.

    I am so sorry to hear about your pain... Like I said, if you do feel comfortable with talking about it, I'm always available to listen.

    And I'll offer all the compassion I have.
  9. powerdoom

    powerdoom Member

    Well that's cool and all but it doesn't take away my physical pains in any way... Actually I have to swallow a lot of pills and even pills help only like 50%.

    I am too young for this sh*t.....
  10. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    hiya im sorry your suffering. i too have to take lots of pills and they don't cure me either....

    you say "Some people just whine about everything but I have serious problems... and my problems are somewhat unique so I feel like I am alone with my problems"

    I believe that anyone who feels badly enough to be down or suicidal has serious problems and everyone who has problems is also unique. every problem and situation is unique, and no worse or better than yours or mine.

    what do you think might help you to feel better? is there anything we can do for you to help? :)
  11. powerdoom

    powerdoom Member

    Well not really... there isn't anything you can do sadly. But misery loves company and I feel better when I can whine my suffering to someone....

    I am in pretty bad condition now... Just because I'm not going to the store to buy a rope doesn't mean that things aren't bad, just wishing to die is bad enough... But at the end of the day who knows really?.. Maybe it really is better at the other side...???? Might as well find out....

    D/W I'm not doing it yet, but if things ain't gonna get better I see myself doing it after 2012, because I believe that 2012 is the end of the world anyway ..
  12. moody

    moody Member

    Re: Mornin'...

    Mornin' everyone ! My name is R , but you can call me Moody, as my nick-name.
    My story ? I'm a girl, i'm 21, and i'm gay. Yes, i'm a lesbian. But depressed one, and most of the time, drunk or too tired to give a damn for this world.Anyway, my english is very weak, so i apologize for the little mistakes that i probably made.
    Though, i'm glad that i found this site, and hopefully, i wish to meet new people and make friends...
  13. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    And the same to you, R. Thanks for the introduction, and welcome. Cheers. ;)
  14. black orchid

    black orchid Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF moody :) look forward to seeing you around
  15. Anneinside

    Anneinside Well-Known Member

    Interesting that you say that. I never notice that I can't smile when I'm depressed but when I am starting to come out of it I notice that other people are smiling at me. Then I finally realizing that I am smiling too.
  16. anon o mouse

    anon o mouse Member

    Hello, Well im 34 tg and hate my self so much I wished I could die, I drink to forget but it makes me worse, Im clinicly depressed and just hate going out. Pills didnt help and my marriage is breaking down.

    Theres my short intro....

    Sorry didnt think last post worked so sort of repeated my self..:biggrin:
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