Hi, I found this place while looking into ways to commit suicide...I've seen this place a few times but never decided to make an account. I'm almost 16 and have been thinking about killing myself for a few years now. I'm really taking the idea seriously lately...planning and researching into it and stuff. I live with my dad who has abused me my whole life, and made it pretty clear he never wanted me and that I'm a burden to him. I think he is a sadist as well. I don't really have anyone in my life that loves me...no real friends or family other than him. I think I have wanted to die even before I really understood the concept of suicide. I just don't really know what to do. I hate myself.