hi im new here :[

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by SadButterfly, Mar 17, 2009.

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  1. SadButterfly

    SadButterfly New Member

    hi im depreesed for 8 months and feel suicidal
    i dont know to write english very good so sory about that
    i just want to talk to someone share my problems

    helpppp meee
  2. helena

    helena Staff Alumni

    Hi SadButterfly, welcome to the forum :)
    sorry to hear about your feelings.
    Would you like to write more about them, and how come you feel like that, etc?
    Don't worry about your english, there are people here from all over the world, I'm not
    english or other english speaking nationality too :wink:
    I hope you find the support you need here, some good advice, as a lot of the
    members know very well how you feel.
    I'm here if you need me
    Take good care of you,
  3. SadButterfly

    SadButterfly New Member

    ok thanks helena

    im 19 from israel (not jewish) i have a big family and a lot of cousins
    and my family have a rules we cant drink alcohol or date jewish girls
    but all my cousins secretley date jewish girls and drink alcohol
    every week

    iv always know that they did that since i was 14 and iv waited to get my licence (cause in israel every one who have a car is cool and the peopel who
    dowsent have a car is not cool) and finnaly i got it a boght my own car and started to go to parties an stuff and i had a lot of girlfriends then i lost control over my life i did some stuff that i am not proud of to get money so i can go to parties (cause i wanted to be cool) but my assholes cousins told my father about those stuff i did and he got angry and sold my car
    now for 8 months im in here alone in home i cant go out and if i could i will probably wont go out to
    8 months im depressed just going to work and coming home all my friends left me all
    and the worst part is that i dont know y my father make me go to work i dont even want to live
    but i cant talk to cause in my fucking family we dont talk about problems

    i just wanna kill myself but every time i convince myself that tomorrow will be different

    i dont know what to do i wish i will go to sleep and never wokeup
  4. mdmefontaine

    mdmefontaine Antiquities Friend

    hi...welcome to s.f.

    i read your thread, and i am sorry you are going through this depression and isolation. i hope you find support here. your english is great - never worry about that hun. keep reading around the forum, and posting, and you can pm any of us if you want to talk.

    lean on us and stay safe - we all try to help each other, as we are stronger together. :console:
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hello sadbutterfly,

    welcome to sf :) I'm glad you found us.

    Are you taking any medication for your depression/seeing a therapist? :hug:
  6. SadButterfly

    SadButterfly New Member

    medication therapist
    you dont anderstand my family is old school they dont believe in depression they see me depressed every day
    we live in the same home all my family see me like that and they dont even care....

    im in hell already

    i just remember that there was a time that i was happy
    i guess i will never be happy again

    i dont commit suicide cause im afraid that my family will say that i was a pussy
  7. Beautiful Disaster

    Beautiful Disaster Forum Buddy SF Supporter

    Welcome to the forum :hug:

    How old are you, I was just wondering..

    Sad to hear that you are feeling depressed..
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