Hello, As you can probably tell I'm TroubledTeen, and I'm brand new to this site. This is the first forum of this kind I've been too. I'm 15 and have been suffering from depression for about three or four years now. I started getting suicidal thoughts about two years ago and they seem to progress almost everyday. Only one person truly knows about my problem, but pretty soon after I found the courage to tell him he moved a couple states over. We still talk, but it's not the same you know? My other best friend has basically abandoned me, and whenever I bring up even the possibility of depression for me she says it will pass and I'll be fine. The only problem is I don't know if I will be fine. At this point I feel like I definitely won't be. Like it's inevitable and the only question is when. For the past year of so it's been my older brother causing the problems and even encouraging it. Recently it doesn't take much to put me in a dark mood that lasts for a very long time. I have insomnia but I don't know if that's a cause or effect of depression. Right now I need anything from someone who has experience with what I feel.