I am a 45-year old female who is depressed. I have always had some depression and bouts of suicidal thoughts. I lost my 20-yr old son who was my only child last July due to an auto accident. I really feel like I died with him. Think about suicide regularly now and am really leaning in that direction! Maybe somebody can say something that will help me. In past 3 years, got divorced, lost my job, lost my house, lost my son...now selling off belongings to make ends meet. Trying to keep the hope and faith that are so necessary, but... Thanks for listening!