Hi, I'm a 28/f/Austin. I was an isolated child who was also abused and had nothing to compare it to. I got used to feeling unhappy at a young age and gravitated toward abusive people when I grew up thinking it was normal. After enduring 2 years of severe trauma I had a psychotic break and was plumb f***ing nuts for a good 3 years. For the last year and a half I have not needed any medication or felt the need to kill myself. Sometimes I think about how I always have the option if things get to hard. LOL But I've felt normal for a long time. I want all of you to know that even after 23 years of hell and another 3 of total insanity, panic, and complex PTSD delusions... You CAN feel normal. It may take a lot of years but its there. Eventually. Some of y'all should look into hormone imbalance just FYI. Unless you're in your teens... we know you're not hormonally balanced but hang in there, you'll probably feel better by 19 or so. If anyone wants to talk, I'm around.